Darling’s: it has been a while since I have really sat down and talked through what is going on… we are getting closer and closer to may, and we really could not be more excited! I will say that the last trimester has been the hardest for me by far… it has really been an emotional roller coaster and full of anxiety. Gestational diabetes is the hardest thing I have had to go through up to this point in my pregnancy. Seems no matter how hard I try to meal prep, eat healthier, and cut out all the bad things we are not supposed to eat the more I struggle. Don’t get my wrong I know this is what the baby and I need at this point, but that doesn’t make it any easier. Things I used to take for granted I miss… just being able to eat what I want when I want it.. I don’t mean eating a whole pizza followed by a bunch of ice cream. I just mean not having to wait till 2 hours after a meal to test my blood sugars and then have a small snack. If I really want an orange or even a cookie for that matter I shouldn’t have to feel guilty. Instead I just shrug it off and ignore that cookie, and wait till I can eat my orange for an afternoon snack. I would not wish this situation on anyone. I know that there are lots of worst things and that to some people what I am going through would be a cake walk, but for me being so far along in pregnancy, working full time and just being down right tired it is a lot to take on. I just hope and pray that this baby (ps can not wait to find out if baby is a boy or girl) is healthy! The end is getting closer… class is done, nursery is pretty much all set. Car seat will be here anytime for Cory to install, nothing will make us happier than to finally meet this baby on May 3rd. Yes that’s right we have a date… and time, due to previous medical issues it was out of my hands I need to have a cesarean. I have finally come to peace knowing that this is what is best for me and our baby, I will still get skin on skin after birth and I won’t miss the 40 week wait of its a _____! Hope you all have a fantastic Easter with all your family and friends. I will be back soon with another shorter update I am sure!